Last week I spoke to someone from the Let's Talk team in Nottingham, having suffered with unexplained pain for the last 8-9 months it has taken it's toll. There is no fuse anymore not even a short one, I lose my temper over silly things quite quickly and worry about everything, from the bee on the floor dying to sending my son to school with a grape in case he chokes.
I have no idea why I am this way or have started with these fears and feelings, but something is obviously wrong so I have been referred for CBT (Cognitive Behaviroual Therapy).
I saw a counsellor when I was at school and after the birth of my son a Perinatal Mental Health Nurse came to see me to help me with my PND.
So I guess I am predisposed to mental health problems but what with the diagnosis of Fibromyalgia (although this is something that can never be 100% diagnosed) it has just gotten to much, thoughts and feelings that I shouldn't be having are there again.
Day's, although that is all they are, where the darkness sets in and I feel close the edge of a pit I know only too well.
Staring at the ever further away light at the end of the tunnel, but I know I need to be better for my children.
I used to use my blog to post about my feelings but it got a little like I was talking to myself, but maybe that is who I need to talk too.
More to come on my journey with some CBT and Fibromyalgia and if anyone has been through CBT I would love to hear more about whether it helped or not.
I Had my first CBT appointment today after waiting nearly 9 weeks
ReplyDeleteIve blogged about it but to be honest it was just a getting to know you session really.
but I will be blogging through my experience.
http://spencersarc.wordpress.com/category/mental-health-adventures/
Thank you for taking the time to reply, I have been over and read your post and it is very interesting. I'll probably be waiting this long too but hopefully it will be worth it, I have waited this long anyway. Interesting what they pick up on, i'll be posting about my time with the CBT Therapist as well.
Deletemy lovely i suffered PND and i still suffer from PSS and i had intensive CBT when i was first diagnosed .. It is hard work in that it challenges you to behave in a way in you are not comfortable .. but then thats the point your current stress and behaviours are the ones that are not necessarily normal (i hate that phrase!)
ReplyDeleteI am free for a meet up if you are once the kids are back at school xx